In this year, I never thought
How much fun he’d bring
Oh what joy Elliott has brought
I’m liking this parenthood thing
Between the diapers and the crying
And picking him up everyday
I’d totes be lying
If I said I didn’t love every day
Now that he’s one
He will soon start to walk
And this bundle of fun
Will also talk talk talk
I couldn’t have done it without my baby bear
Thanks for putting up with my shit
I’m so glad we have this life to share
For you and for Smelly, I’ll never ever quit
“Wow, can you get in the correct lane?!”
I scream inside my head at them
While I dig deep in there for a hidden gem
As if my going 3 miles over will provide me a gain
My eyeballs stinging, feeling the strain
From a long night of feeding the smells
And within my head, my own voice yells
“Do you really need an energy drink today?”
Of course I do, as it would prevent the delay
With a swig of the elixir, my problems dispel
Chasing the views, chasing the fame
Never, at one point, thinking that
Your chief definite aim
Shouldn’t be creating a new hip hop cat
But instead of hating the game,
You become a spoiled, terminally online brat
Until nobody knows who you are
Just a long faded, burnt out “star”.
To have dominion over all living things
Is to extend to them the grace of God
For we do know why the caged bird sings
Deep within our psyche, everyday, it prods
To our furry and scaly friends, we must be kind
Because when they look at us, in their mind
Killing and eating them… seems rather odd
Every once in a January
Deep within the Volunteer State
An icy hell overtakes us all
Never planning a single date
Deciding many-a critters fate
All the while, school children anxiously await
From it’s frozen jaws, painful winds blow
Chilling you down to your bone
Unceasing, unrelenting, always hungry for more
Never targeting a certain zone
It’s wintery grasp claims you as it’s own
All of nature, as you let out your final moan
But just as quickly as it arrives, it leaves
Gone, without a single trace
Leaving residents frustrated, angered
Why must I continue to live in this place?
And from their memory, this dark winter erased
Onward, onward, to Spring’s warm embrace.
Oh,The gift of her hazel eyes
The most beautiful of jewelry cant compare
Every morning, taking me by surprise
“My baby is the most fair.”
And oh, those amazing locks
A dark, alluring auburn red
My heart starts to knock
I miss her every night we lay down for bed
But most important, her heart
which gives endless compassion and love
I’m so grateful i get a part
And of her life, i get to be a part of
May we live the rest of our lives together
Through good times and bad, until we reach the nether
In the moment it happens
Your life becomes cryogenic
Unable to love, unable to feel
And everything in your world blackens
You can hop from pad to pad
Thinking to yourself “this is it, this is the one”
All to let yourself down again
Only to feel even more sad
But when one starts loving themselves
Your cryogenesis slowly, slowly fades
Opening up your heart
Peering deeper into your wells
Eventually, you feel great
Ready to take on the world
And all it took was a single, simple thought
Letting go of burdens, slinking off that self-afflicted weight
No crunching of the brown and dead leaves
Not yet at least, it’s 80 degrees!
Changing my outfits throughout the day
Is it still bright out at 530? No way.
Summer barely clings on, thank goodness for that
Don’t yet have to worry about my car tearing up a cat
But next week? It’s fifty, for the high
Farewell, glorious Southern Summer, to you, I say goodbye.
“It’s in your moments of decision that your destiny is shaped”
The big jawed man will say
As if I haven’t, from the bottom of my soul, scraped
Every last ounce of give-a-fuck, just to be okay
These days zip by, as I ingest more junk
Growing, pound by pound
Downing more beer, getting more drunk
Waiting for my inspiration to be found
But it isn’t there, not in those books at least
Just like Ralph Waldo Emerson said
In order to feed your do-it beast
You must look within your head
I really love watching
Him grow, inch by inch, pound by pound
But it also
Tears me up inside, I’ll never experience this
Again
But I know
That he’ll be the greatest
Little human that ever done was
And ever will be.
Melancholy and the Shining Light 